Monday, September 29, 2008
Today feels like four years ago, but unlike then, today I'm not the cause of it all. Unlike then, today I'm helpless, because I'm not the cause of it all. How long is this going to last Abba? I can't take it anymore. No one cares, no one listens, no one speaks, no one laughs, no one smiles. Everyone cares, only for themselves.Everyone listens, only to themselves.Everyone laughs, only when the are not together. Everyone smiles, at everyone except at each other. She's stressed. She's alone. She's tired. She's cranky. She's pissed.He's stressed. He's doing. He's not who he used to be. she's guilt-ridden. she's sad. she can't solve the problem. she has changed. she's rude. she's disrespectful. she's doubtful. she's going crazy. he's king. he's prince. he's queen. he's princess. he's a couch potato. he's lazy. he doesn't know anything.It's gone. she wants It so badly. Maybe a shoulder to cry on.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
What has changed? My circumstances? Or have I changed so much? Sometimes I don't even recognise myself. Maybe both has changed, so much that everything seems so foreign now.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Exams are almost over. One paper left, and it's on monday. All I can say is... Jesus Abba.
I FREAKING WON'T RETAIN.
I would like a good book, which I don't have. A big comfy chair, which I don't have. Air-conditioned room, which I don't have. My ipod, which I have. Read for the entire day, take my mind off things for a bit, which I don't have the luxury of.
Speaking of luxury, it still irks me that they are selling it away. Saving up the cash? Right...... I am so tired, both mentally and emotionally. All part of His plans, but why is it so painful? Blessing of deu 28 over my life amen(:
Sometimes little things makes me feel insecure, but my Abba is always here for me.
I'm bored. I want to do something fun, try something new. Do anything but be alone, cause that when I know my thoughts and fears will surface. Abba, find me something to do please.
I can't cry, I can't complain, I can't say how I really feel. That's so not who I am, but just because you're telling me not to, I'm shutting up.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
JESUS over my papers(: HAHA. (this is like an unofficial break I'm having)
Econs and Bio tmr(: JESUS AH JESUS!!!!
There are so many things we( Denise, Leying and I) plan to do once we finish promos. Nothing's confirmed yet(: We're all conc-ing on promos(((((:
I'm telling you the BK at Wheelock is so blessed to have us there almost everyday.
I can't wait for this all to end.
Then it's chinese.......... right.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Ought not Jerlynn being the daughter of Abraham get her A's
Friday, September 12, 2008
ASHLEY TAY SHU REN did NOT go to school today. Let's see, today.... I hardly got a break. I'm glad the day's going to over soon.
DO YOU KNOW THAT STUDYING IS FUN?
exams are not.
Went studying at BK with Leying. She was sighing like crazy. "Jer, how to do this?" mind you she was asking me math. Yeah, math. Woah. My darling ah, if you don't know, I most prolly won't either.
STUDYing again tomorrow. WOOHOO(: Same place, same time, same darlings. Buger King again......... FAN WEI, but studying there is fine luh(:
No Arrow tmr.
I MISS ARROW!! It's not Arrow I miss, sure Jesus's EVERYWHERE, but there's something special about Arrow. (DUH! Why else would there be a need for it right?!)
Jesus Daddy, I miss you. And thanks(:
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Yesterday, I felt like shooting myself in the head.
Today, I feeling like digging my nails into my head, peel my head apart, crack open my skull and dig whatever shit that's inside.
Don't the teachers already know we've got so much to do? Yet they continue adding on to the to-do list ruthlessly.
FRAG PROJECT WORK FRAG FRAG FRAG!The feeling of never ending-ness. Jesus, this is so painful. I really don't know what to do. Faith, sure I believe I'll be there next year, but the process is to painful. It's like forcing needles between my nails. So painful, yet I'll never die.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
I REALLY DON'T LIKE PROJECT WORK. I REALLY DON'T LIKE PROJECT WORK. I REALLY DON'T LIKE PROJECT WORK. I REALLY DON'T LIKE PROJECT WORK. I REALLY DON'T LIKE PROJECT WORK.Just want to get it over and done with.
I really want that song.
Dingodongmerrilyhohobo.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Tomorrow's Term four of my Jone year(:
Good news:
I survived roughly eight to nine months of the toughest phase of my studying life.
Bad news:
The toughest has yet to come.
So they say "Good things come to those who wait." sureeeeeeee. I merely waited a year for chineseAs, Promos, PW-OP. Nothing much lah. Trust me. JC is like a good steak left on the grill for the longest time possible. Tough like anything.
I'm kidding (hell yeah). Other the mugging like i don't know....MUG thing, it's FUN(: make brill friends, khakis for all breaks and we are super protected by the school. Hey, what more can I ask for.
On top of all this, my Jesus is always here for me. So i'm counting on him to get my really really super undeserved A's for chem, bio, math, econs, gp, CHINESE(: Jesus, THIS IS MINE, the stupid idiot stole it from me. It shall return EVERYTHING TO ME 1.2 times(:
Geez, should I approach thumby for help? Hmmmmmm. gosh.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
I MADE JELLY TODAY(: I wish I had taken some photos of it though!
I've got soup to drink. I've been drinking so much water, that I can safely say the amount of water I drank today is like double the amount I've drank in the past week (thus explaining my ugly pimples TSK)
Today, like every other day I dream like a DO-DO bird. It's fun.
